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weekend of joy
i think the amount of time that i spent out of bed this weekend could be measured in minutes. and not very many of them either. it was great. i was so tired. and the snuggles were fantastic. i'd forgotten the best technique for coping with living in a frozen wasteland with nothing to do. ignore it. pretend it's not there. make believe that world is down to a big bed, a snuggly one, smoky substances, good books, some fun tv.
i didn't even move out of bed when one of the Lost Boys came over and used the Dandelion's house as a crashpad. it was fun, i stayed all curled up in comforters while they played Tekkan. i didn't even mind. watching mindless animated violence and spacing out is actually kind of fun.
it snowed beautifully. i could see the beauty of it since we only were out in it for about five minutes. everything was frosty and magic, especially when looking out on it.
it's been a long time since i've been there without the help of substances. you know what i mean by there...that place when all's right, and even when it's not, you know it will be, someday. i felt relaxed, not tense. and for me that is a triumph almost beyond imagining.
i didn't even move out of bed when one of the Lost Boys came over and used the Dandelion's house as a crashpad. it was fun, i stayed all curled up in comforters while they played Tekkan. i didn't even mind. watching mindless animated violence and spacing out is actually kind of fun.
it snowed beautifully. i could see the beauty of it since we only were out in it for about five minutes. everything was frosty and magic, especially when looking out on it.
it's been a long time since i've been there without the help of substances. you know what i mean by there...that place when all's right, and even when it's not, you know it will be, someday. i felt relaxed, not tense. and for me that is a triumph almost beyond imagining.