guilt does no good

...without a firm purpose of amendment.

sigh. it has been forever. again.
must cure this horrible depression, which admittedly appears difficult at the present moment, as the world keeps throwing random afflictions in my way. have been losing touch with friends. withdrawing into self. etc. etc. ad nauseam.

however. i am working on it. actually left the house today. this is something of a start. now must embark on room cleaning as it is the most chaotic i have ever seen it to be, and after my teenage years that's saying something. the detritus from my apartment is crammed into this small space of adolescent hopes and the result is quite lowering to the spirit.
also, must make and keep doctor's appointments. this is now more important than ever before.

"i shall conquer this!"