so and so...

[fictional]

so...it's been a long time.
i don't know why i haven't been able to write in so long.
(lazy, disconnected, dumb)
but i shall try to be better.
went to meditation today, like a virtuous student.
we started sitting practice, and it was easier than i thought it was going to be.
d. is in new orleans, and i should be busy with my work.
i am not. i can't concentrate on anything.
i wish that i wasn't so worried about him, i wish missing him didn't feel like a part of myself was missing.
i wish i could just let these feelings wash over me...
without upset.
but alas...
and now perhaps i can settle down to my paper on Sir Gawain and the Green Knight,
or my presentation on "Bad History" tomorrow.
or perhaps not.

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I wrote a paper on Sir Gawain and the Green Knight once upon the time. Small world.