calling for a psyche plumber

i have been really bad today.
didn't get done nearly as much work as i meant to (read, practically no work at all)
i'm hoping to finish my takehome final tonight, and then worry about the physics paper tomorrow.
i wish i had more time to recover from this semester before i headed off to Rome this summer.
i need some downtime.

this morning was...strange. i'm always so ashamed of not being the person that i want to be, that highly evolved, super intelligent, calm and collected, laugh at everything, woman that i fall so short of being, so much of the time.
i cry way too easily these days, it seems like i loosened some valve in my head, and now i just leak at every opportunity. i miss being a tough girl.