calling for a psyche plumber

[fictional]

i have been really bad today.
didn't get done nearly as much work as i meant to (read, practically no work at all)
i'm hoping to finish my takehome final tonight, and then worry about the physics paper tomorrow.
i wish i had more time to recover from this semester before i headed off to Rome this summer.
i need some downtime.

this morning was...strange. i'm always so ashamed of not being the person that i want to be, that highly evolved, super intelligent, calm and collected, laugh at everything, woman that i fall so short of being, so much of the time.
i cry way too easily these days, it seems like i loosened some valve in my head, and now i just leak at every opportunity. i miss being a tough girl.

Comments

[lostcrumpet.livejournal.com]

oiwch. refer to my reply to your comment
*hugs back*

[sykii.livejournal.com]

"you leak that which makes others soft"

there's no conflict between tough and weepy.
you do what you must. that is toughness.
whether you laugh or cry while you're doing it, makes no real difference.