beyond explication

[fictional]

my new love affair with the word "inexpressible" is a little on the strange side.
expressing things is my vocation and my avocation...
why this fascination with things that cannot be told?

for i love the backstage, the mystery.
the parts that don't fit. the machinations that you never see.
i dream of writing masques for people to ponder what's behind them.

i'm realising afresh how hard it is to be two people, all at once.