oh cyberspace, how i have missed ye...

i'm back online, and calliope is ready to go.
i probably can't afford paying this bill, but i had too. i need my net.

i'm off to work now. see y'all later!

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i hesitate to say this, but i think spring may finally be here for real.
hear that? that's me knocking on wood.
i've become superstitious in my old age.

much to do.
stop wasting time on LJ, kali-chan!!!

a treacherous sea

i feel like i'm drowning.

i've caught myself with phrases about drowning uttered during sex under my breath.
cliched things like that don't bear the light of day, or the scrutiny of anyone besides myself.
there's a whirlpool going on somewhere inside me.
now i think i'm falling into it.

i don't know what to do.
it's a beautiful day outside, and i sat out in it. read my book. laughed some. thought about why eggs are considered breakfast food. and all the time, i was thinking, i'm drowning. it's dark. i feel lost. and cold.
my life is swirling around me, and i'm fighting so hard to stay afloat.

oh, really?

http://stars.metawire.com

Week commencing Saturday, 6th April 2002
VIRGO
(Aug 24 - Sep 23)
A balloon is a wonderful thing. You can put more and more air into it and it will simply expand. Obviously, if you put in too much it will explode but this is not where most balloons meet their downfall. They develop leaks: sometimes through wear and tear and sometimes through interaction with a sharp influence. You have a balloon to protect at the moment. A bubble that you really do not want to burst. It is perfectly possible to keep it in one piece but you now need to be a little cautious. Only a little though. The most important balloon protection mechanism that you now have is faith. Summon that precious inner commodity and everything will yet start to go up in your world.