a grownup costume
Apr. 18th, 2002 11:33 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
fictionali'm actually feeling a little better this morning. it's a beautiful day, and i have an appointment to see an apartment later this afternoon. it looks like a pretty decent deal, all things considered.
i still feel so strange seeing apartments, and such. it seems like such an adult thing to do. i sometimes think that i'm a twelve year old masquerading in a twenty-one year old body, and any minute someone's going to rip off my disguise.
my parents have been wonderful, and sent me a whole big bunch of money. while the desire to just spend it all right now is tempting, i won't. i'm going to try and be mature about this, possibly for the first time ever. i'm going to need this money later. especially since i know all their tax information, and i can't figure out where the hell this money is coming from. i have this horrible feeling that they're denying themselves stuff to fund me, and that just doesn't seem right. but at least i'm virtually certain that neither the boy nor i will starve. and that is a good thing.
i still feel so strange seeing apartments, and such. it seems like such an adult thing to do. i sometimes think that i'm a twelve year old masquerading in a twenty-one year old body, and any minute someone's going to rip off my disguise.
my parents have been wonderful, and sent me a whole big bunch of money. while the desire to just spend it all right now is tempting, i won't. i'm going to try and be mature about this, possibly for the first time ever. i'm going to need this money later. especially since i know all their tax information, and i can't figure out where the hell this money is coming from. i have this horrible feeling that they're denying themselves stuff to fund me, and that just doesn't seem right. but at least i'm virtually certain that neither the boy nor i will starve. and that is a good thing.
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Date: 2002-04-18 10:04 am (UTC)i so know how you feel sweetie. rent, bills, food.. all of that stuff still feels like something i should have to deal with, but i dont' have much of a choice...
the urge to dodge the responsibility, shirk it off onto someone else's shoulders and remain free forever never goes away, i dont' think... (or at least it hasnt' in 3.5yrs?)...
but, hey, we unfortunately don't get much of a choice.
although i did hear that mental institutions are nice, as long as you've got someone to pay the bill...
and if you want, call your parents, if you think you can make do without some of the money, offer it back to them. that way they know that you do still need their help, but your adult enough to realize how much you need and you love them enough that you dont' want them to struggle in order to keep you comfortable.
or something, i'm just rambling i guess, being all advice giving and motherly and shit. ignore me.
no, dont 'ignore me. love me, but dont' pay any mind to what i said.
unless you like what i said.
then it's all me baby :)
I want...
Date: 2002-04-19 02:20 am (UTC)They are so cute. And hot.
I'm a dirty, tipsy, silly girl right now.
I'll regret this post later.
Laugh at my foolishness.
-MG
Re: I want...
Date: 2002-04-19 06:24 am (UTC)Re: I want...
Date: 2002-04-19 08:19 am (UTC)y'know, i can be in the city in about 6hrs? ;)
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Date: 2002-04-19 06:23 am (UTC)*mwah!!!*
miss you...it's been far too long since we hung out...
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Date: 2002-04-19 08:20 am (UTC)for real. we must again.
soon.
and stuff. :)