depressing realization

[fictional]

it was two, maybe three world cups ago. west germany ended up winning that one, i think. my father and i taped every single match, spending hours pouring over the results in the newspaper, doing complicated mathematical analysis of who would advance from round to round. i remember sitting there, in our living room, watching the sun pour through the windows and dance on dust motes in front of the television, and turning to my father and saying, "you know, when we watch the 2002 world cup together (as we most definitely will), i'll be all graduated from college. isn't that a strange thought?"

and now i'm sitting here in italy, six thousand miles away from home, as people cluster around televisions in the piazza farnese and campo dei fiori, vociferously announcing each goal and corner kick to the entire nation with screams and yells. things haven't gone as planned, i haven't done what i meant to do. graduating from college seems as far away as it did on that sunny day long ago.

this isn't where i was supposed to be.

Comments

[sykii.livejournal.com]

no, you're not.
instead, you're a beautiful, intelligent and accomplished woman, furthering her education in Rome.
the horror... THE HORROR!

;)

i know how you feel, love, you know i do- 'twas just a little reminder.

[kalichan.livejournal.com]

i needed it.
thank you for the putting-in-perspective.
i get a little out of focus now and then (well, frequently.)

love-age and miss-age.

[sykii.livejournal.com]

er, i guess that should be "no it isn't"

reading comprehension much, kat?

I have to go with Kat on this one-

[magnetgirl.livejournal.com]

Seriously, luv.
You're only in the fucking HONORS program at an IVY LEAGUE University, studying in a BEAUTIFUL foriegn country, knowing you have a loving wonderful man to come home to-

And you're pouting because this didn't fit into your highschool dreams of College? Jeeze hon, I think you're depressing yourself when you don't need to...remember that when you had those thoughts you were underage! A lot happens when you leave home for the first time. Life changes.

Did I think that I'd be thrown out of college? No.
But I'm back and better than ever-And working at an incredible internship. It ain't Rome, but if you consider my chosen field, it kinda is ;-) I'm not going to depress myself now because I didn't graduate in 2002. 2003 is an UGLY number, but there it is. And I'm proud of what I've done, and you should be as well.

Smile, please. And laughing doesn't count because we all know what that means.

:::loves you:::
-MG

Re: I have to go with Kat on this one-

[kalichan.livejournal.com]

::smiles:: was that big enough?

thanks, love.
'ppreciate your words.

love you, and miss you.

Re: I have to go with Kat on this one-

[magnetgirl.livejournal.com]

You know, the appriciate your words thing is what kevin smith has said to me TWICE.

Are you getting famous on me?
I better be able to do your PR.

;-)
-MG