soul laryngitis
Aug. 1st, 2002 10:20 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
fictionali've lost my voice.
it was not a good night.
i am shaken and confused and ashamed of myself.
not a happy mix.
actually it hasn't been a good couple of weeks. i don't know what's the matter with me. i feel caught up in this morass of tangled emotions that i have no idea how to unravel. last night was just a symptom of the disease.
i've lost my voice.
i don't know what i want, or what i don't want. or how to get what i need. i feel all alone, out in a lonely place that i don't know how to navigate.
the trouble is that i really thought better of myself. i thought i had this under control. i thought i knew how to stand up for myself. but no. and it's no one's fault but my own.
and now all i hear coming out of my throat is this never ending stream of apologies.
it was not a good night.
i am shaken and confused and ashamed of myself.
not a happy mix.
actually it hasn't been a good couple of weeks. i don't know what's the matter with me. i feel caught up in this morass of tangled emotions that i have no idea how to unravel. last night was just a symptom of the disease.
i've lost my voice.
i don't know what i want, or what i don't want. or how to get what i need. i feel all alone, out in a lonely place that i don't know how to navigate.
the trouble is that i really thought better of myself. i thought i had this under control. i thought i knew how to stand up for myself. but no. and it's no one's fault but my own.
and now all i hear coming out of my throat is this never ending stream of apologies.