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Well, I'd been avoiding saying anything about this. Probably in some sort of subconscious effort to pretend that it's not really happening. One can't do that forever though, I suppose (regrettably).

Anyway, after much discussion, tears, hugs, and general angst, d. and I have decided to part ways. When we leave the Wasteland, he will be returning to the Sunshiny Plastic Place, and I will be making a six week trip to India with my parental units. After which, I am moving back to the City (and I can't fuckin' wait). This has been a really hard few weeks, what with all the end-of-college stuff as well, and it's caused me to fall out of touch with most of my friends. So, my apologies, and I hope to be better about that soon.

All in all, this is the most civilised parting-of-ways that I have ever encountered, and I am grateful for that. We both love each other immensely still, and will, I think, continue to do so. We simply have very different needs and wants from the future, and since this seems to be a natural stopping point, what with the move and all, it seemed like the right decision. Since we don't want to let go even now, I think we realize that adding more years would have just made our inevitable break even harder. And this, now, is quite painful enough.

It hurts more every day. Knowing that it is right is unfortunately of little comfort at the moment. But I hope it will be.

Comments

[soulhaus.livejournal.com]

well... wow.. this must have been a crazy stressful couple of weeks for you!
*hugs*
enjoy your trip to india, i think it'll do you good :)

[kalichan.livejournal.com]

thanks hon.
*hugs*

[magnetgirl.livejournal.com]

:::Showers you with kisses:::

I'm always here.

[kalichan.livejournal.com]

*kisses back*

noted, and much appreciated. we'll talk soon, i hope.
*love*

[lostcrumpet.livejournal.com]

:(

very admirable that you can manage to put the mind before the heart in this matter, that's something i am still working on.

goodluck!!

[kalichan.livejournal.com]

hey, long time no talk.
thanks for the good thoughts....

*hugs*

[prosicated.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[kalichan.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[patashoqua.livejournal.com]

Love you. Call any time you want.

[kalichan.livejournal.com]

thanks, dear one.

miss you.

[(Anonymous)]

If I could put on a dress for you I would, but it's not your birthday and we're not in high school anymore. Believe it or not knowing that it is right should help eventually, but for now the best thing is to frequently call your old friends, particularly me. Anyway, I'm going to go and do the online stalk thing and read your old LJ entries since you had to go do your applications instead of staying on the phone and letting me distract you with NYC drama.

Did I mention we should call each other more often? Love you...

[kalichan.livejournal.com]

Sometimes I forget how much I miss you. But then you say something like this, and rock my world. I wish we could see each other (in a dress or otherwise).

I love you. Will call again soon...