subtraction
Dec. 6th, 2003 11:11 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
fictionalWell, I'd been avoiding saying anything about this. Probably in some sort of subconscious effort to pretend that it's not really happening. One can't do that forever though, I suppose (regrettably).
Anyway, after much discussion, tears, hugs, and general angst, d. and I have decided to part ways. When we leave the Wasteland, he will be returning to the Sunshiny Plastic Place, and I will be making a six week trip to India with my parental units. After which, I am moving back to the City (and I can't fuckin' wait). This has been a really hard few weeks, what with all the end-of-college stuff as well, and it's caused me to fall out of touch with most of my friends. So, my apologies, and I hope to be better about that soon.
All in all, this is the most civilised parting-of-ways that I have ever encountered, and I am grateful for that. We both love each other immensely still, and will, I think, continue to do so. We simply have very different needs and wants from the future, and since this seems to be a natural stopping point, what with the move and all, it seemed like the right decision. Since we don't want to let go even now, I think we realize that adding more years would have just made our inevitable break even harder. And this, now, is quite painful enough.
It hurts more every day. Knowing that it is right is unfortunately of little comfort at the moment. But I hope it will be.
Anyway, after much discussion, tears, hugs, and general angst, d. and I have decided to part ways. When we leave the Wasteland, he will be returning to the Sunshiny Plastic Place, and I will be making a six week trip to India with my parental units. After which, I am moving back to the City (and I can't fuckin' wait). This has been a really hard few weeks, what with all the end-of-college stuff as well, and it's caused me to fall out of touch with most of my friends. So, my apologies, and I hope to be better about that soon.
All in all, this is the most civilised parting-of-ways that I have ever encountered, and I am grateful for that. We both love each other immensely still, and will, I think, continue to do so. We simply have very different needs and wants from the future, and since this seems to be a natural stopping point, what with the move and all, it seemed like the right decision. Since we don't want to let go even now, I think we realize that adding more years would have just made our inevitable break even harder. And this, now, is quite painful enough.
It hurts more every day. Knowing that it is right is unfortunately of little comfort at the moment. But I hope it will be.
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Date: 2003-12-08 07:08 am (UTC)noted, and much appreciated. we'll talk soon, i hope.
*love*