Well, it helped except immediately after when I was tipsy enough to lay down on my bed and start randomly crying. But now I feel better. Well, I don't actually feel anything. Which is better. I think?
I'm, uh, medicating with more, uh, green and combustible items. I'm pretty close to comfortably numb. Perhaps at some point soon, I might... eat a brownie. I'm off sugar, but it may just be that kind of day.
Bottle of Reisling, shot of absinthe, half a pack of cigarettes and a bar of chocolate. I don't have anything green and combustible. Well, except the absinthe. Wish I did, though.
It was preferably dark.
*cries again*
I want a brownie. I found a gluten-free recipe. May need to make some. Am also off sugar, but, you know, fuck it.
Don't know that I will leave the fandom. I will go on a fixit fic binge pretty soon, I expect. As will others. I think right now people are purely reactive and lashing out.
The real fallout will be waiting for if/when a new series will be made, what shape it will take, and if anyone will care in the 18 months it takes them to get it together. Some people will move on to other things, I think.
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Date: 2009-07-10 04:30 am (UTC)Well, it helped except immediately after when I was tipsy enough to lay down on my bed and start randomly crying. But now I feel better. Well, I don't actually feel anything. Which is better. I think?
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Date: 2009-07-10 04:32 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2009-07-10 04:54 am (UTC)It was preferably dark.
*cries again*
I want a brownie. I found a gluten-free recipe. May need to make some. Am also off sugar, but, you know, fuck it.
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Date: 2009-07-10 06:29 am (UTC)Seriously, this pain is, like, going to stop soon, right? I just...
also, I don't want to lose everyone. people are all like, "i'm leaving the fandom" and it makes me even sadder."
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Date: 2009-07-10 06:45 am (UTC)The real fallout will be waiting for if/when a new series will be made, what shape it will take, and if anyone will care in the 18 months it takes them to get it together. Some people will move on to other things, I think.
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Date: 2009-07-10 08:04 am (UTC)