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fictionali am so tired.
last night, moving things into storage went fairly smoothly.
i stayed up for a while afterwards...d. was done with work at 1, and i thought i'd stay awake long enough to spend some time with him after he got home. by about 2:15 i decided to lay down for a moment. i woke up with a jerk at 3:30. the house was still empty. i lay back down, trying to calm down, but unfortunately my heart had begun pounding like i'd just railed some caffeine. i lay back down for another hour and a half...scenario's of cop cars, and wounds running through my head. at 5:15 or so, i stumbled out of bed and into clothes, knowing i'd run outside, and there he'd be, smoking a cigarette against the wall, enjoying the night breeze. or i hoped so anyway.
as i turned towards the door, it opened, and there he was.
despite my relief, it was really hard to fall back asleep after.
finally, towards the even more wee hours of the morning, i fell asleep and had tormented dreams about sumo wrestlers. all in all, not a very restful night.
last night, moving things into storage went fairly smoothly.
i stayed up for a while afterwards...d. was done with work at 1, and i thought i'd stay awake long enough to spend some time with him after he got home. by about 2:15 i decided to lay down for a moment. i woke up with a jerk at 3:30. the house was still empty. i lay back down, trying to calm down, but unfortunately my heart had begun pounding like i'd just railed some caffeine. i lay back down for another hour and a half...scenario's of cop cars, and wounds running through my head. at 5:15 or so, i stumbled out of bed and into clothes, knowing i'd run outside, and there he'd be, smoking a cigarette against the wall, enjoying the night breeze. or i hoped so anyway.
as i turned towards the door, it opened, and there he was.
despite my relief, it was really hard to fall back asleep after.
finally, towards the even more wee hours of the morning, i fell asleep and had tormented dreams about sumo wrestlers. all in all, not a very restful night.
