nevermore

[fictional]

Today, for the first time, my dad fell asleep right in the middle of our conversation. At first I thought he was just joking around, but no. He wasn't.

I realize now, and again -- it doesn't seem to matter how many times I do it, the realization still feels fresh and new -- that this is not going to get easier. I will not wake up one day and get to go back to the way things used to be.

Never. Never. Never.

Comments

[darthhellokitty.livejournal.com]

I'm so, so sorry.

That puts a lot of other stuff into perspective.

[kalichan.livejournal.com]

Would you think I was crazy if I'm still really sad about the other stuff too? *laughs*

[thaddeusfavour.livejournal.com]

I know. I really do. I'm so sorry.

[kalichan.livejournal.com]

Thank you. *hug*

[mellacita.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I know how you feel. I really do. Both my parents died from cancer; I went through this twice by age 32. I can't say anything to help, but if you ever want, I've got a couple of working ears/eyes.

[kalichan.livejournal.com]

Thank you, really. I can't imagine what that must have been like for you, except so fucking awful. *hugs*

[miep.livejournal.com]

oh honey.

*hugs*

[kalichan.livejournal.com]

*hugs back* Just a rough day, no worries.

[elainasaunt.livejournal.com]

*holds your hand* I so wish I could do something a bit realer to comfort you. *pats your hand*

[kalichan.livejournal.com]

*holds on tight* Thank you. And you do.

[ophymirage.livejournal.com]

1000 *hugs*, dear.

[kalichan.livejournal.com]

Thank you. *hugs*

[sykii.livejournal.com]

I love you.

[kalichan.livejournal.com]

And I love you too. Let's get together soon. I could use, like, eleventy billion hugs.

[lolliejean.livejournal.com]

It's hard. I'm thinking about you. xo ~ Lori

[kalichan.livejournal.com]

Thank you. *hug* I'll be okay. Just a rough day.

[contrarywise]

I know. And I'm so sorry. It's hard, so hard. *fierce hugs, as many as you want*

[kalichan.livejournal.com]

*hugs back* Thank you, really.

[kel-reiley.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

oh, hon, i don't even know what to say
other than if you're ever in detroit, you know i will go get drunk with you

[kalichan.livejournal.com]

I do, I do. Thank you.

[kel-reiley.livejournal.com]

i will also take you to ride rollercoasters

[askeladden.livejournal.com]

I'm thinking of you. I hope when you've got some sociability reserves built up that we can do something replenishing and lighthearted together.

[kalichan.livejournal.com]

That sounds delightful.

[virginhuntress.livejournal.com]

::hugs::

I know I don't pop over here often, but I've dealt with stuff like this a lot. let me know if you should ever need anything.